I Wonder

The energy of our synergy only violently reacts.
These emotions that you give me ensure I never can relax.
Nothing about this feels right,
so why keep giving myself away?
The false love that I keep feeling,
makes me wish that you'd just stay. I'm relapsing and collapsing everything I've built up til' today,
just to steal away a moment,
and prove it's not dismay.
I always wonder what I am to you,
while my mind wanders at the thought of you,
the expectation and elation of your smile makes me makes me want to do...
/Do/ anything that I can, just as much that I can stand,
but it's hard to gauge my own balance when you pull and shove me by the hand.
This pacing gets me racing to find out what all of this is,
this rough painting made of words is made a mural next to his.
But it doesn't seem to matter how much blood I spill to fill this empty masterpiece,
when the love returned bulldozes through the last wall that offers peace.