This Pain 28/2/10

Just a diary entry of how i try to keep my thoughts and feelings bottled inside.

For once I'm lost for words because this pain is too intense, it's devouring me. Last night I actuallly forgot how to breathe. All I remember was him telling me he wants my letters, but he was too late and he was mourning over my dead body. His tears of life landing on my face, washing away my sins and finalling bringing me back to life. Only to find his beautiful eyes watching over me, not letting his gaze leave my face for a second, in case I wake.

 

Now I'm in his arms and I realise I'm with him, now I don't ever want this moment to fade. But he has to leave sometime. I want to go with him. Even if he leads me into the flames of death, I'd follow him. I'd follow his footsteps until the end of time.

 

My love for him is undying. No one gets it, I may look happy but really I'm not. Inside me, my heart has been shot from the arrow of a break-up and I'm bleeding from the inside out.

 

I cry for no reason now because I remember what we once had. When he was mine it felt like we were created by the Gods of love and grace. Nowe when he looks at me, all I feel are his eyes burning into my severed heart, like putting metholated spirts in an open wound.

 

Everyonje has their limtations of pain,it just depends on what hurts them the most.

 

I just want to be able to resolve this heartache with something other than the blade.

Author's Note

I wrote it straight from my diary, I changed some sentences and added some in but it's still from my diary though.

Reviews

[deadlysilence]

wow so deep I hope things get better