Resolution

Just felt like writing...

I'm partially at fault for partaking in this endless waltz.
I don't know how to halt, I just create wounds and add some salt!
Turn it to assault and leave em twitching on some asphalt!
But I gotta keep my heart locked tighter than a deadbolt!
You don't know my pain,
B***h, you don't know me!
You can't even see through illusions-
This whole smile is phonie!
F**k the whole world,
Everyone can blow me;
Like I started World War 3 and became the planet's enemy!
Why I gotta be, in a reality where everyone is baloney?
They lunch meat; they don't want no real beef!
I get no sleep-
Just a mind plagued with obsessions,
So much so that I levitate into a new space during my sessions.
I want to learn from life's lessons-
But I hate being schooled'-
I ain't dropping out,
Cause that would make me a fool!
So I deal with the hardships,
Build from the scraps.
Construct a heart so strong that it will never, ever collapse.
So I act how I act,
Cause I'm trying to reach an ideal-
At the same time,
I'm trying to feel like I'm at least starting to heal.
But the fresh paint will eventually peel-
And I need to find a new prayer to reinforce the seal.
I asked God: "What's the deal with this pain?"
Only response I got was thunder and rain.
Dark clouds and a temperature so cold that it hurt,
Like this was a test of natural selection:
Prove your worth.
I nodded and picked up a pen-
And wrote my emotions on a million sheets of paper,
Then grabbed a stapler.
Pinned down all my regrets,
And ripped my addictions into pieces like I did with those cigarettes;
Then I walked into the rain,
Washing off to cleanse and start fresh,
Promised to make things better for myself: a resolution out of this mess.

Reviews

[Maria]

wow that is really powerful poem I love it :)