The Best Parts of me

I wrote this for a therapist I used to have. He totally changed me for the best, but on our last session, I got really upset at him. I wish I could properly thank him.

I was a hot mess,
Who was covered in tarnished flashbacks,
And candy coated faith.
Now I'm a pilgrim,
Walking a dark road,
With a smile that's the only light for my way.
I know I've had it rough,
But I ain't giving up.
I want the best for my destination,
So I'll get there one day.

Oh, if you could only see me now.
I'm sure you'd smile and whisper 'wow..."
Remember how I wanted to quit?
I was so used to it- but...
I'm sure that you'd be proud,
To know that I'm not down and out.
But I guess,
You'll never see,
The best parts of me.

I'm alone on crowded streets.
But I know where I belong.
I got the drive to keep the beat,
I know my heart is strong.
I used to turn to others to make me feel-
Alive.
But their disappointment only led me to think of-
Suicide.
So, I learned to love myself.
I'll remember the day I did and how it felt.

Oh, if you could only see me now.
I'm sure you'd smile and whisper 'wow..."
Remember how I wanted to quit?
I was so used to it- but...
I'm sure that you'd be proud,
To know that I'm not down and out.
But I guess,
You'll never see,
The best parts of me.

I'll remember you as someone who gave me hope.
And you'll probably only recall,
Someone who was scared.
Someone unprepared,
Who was desperate for an antidote.
Well I made one.
I made one, for me...
And the rest of the world!

Oh, if you could only see me now.
I'm sure you'd smile and whisper 'wow..."
Remember how I wanted to quit?
I was so used to it- but...
I'm sure that you'd be proud,
To know that I'm not down and out.
But I guess,
You'll never see,
The best parts of me.

Reviews

[pixieheart97]

I'm sure your therapist would be so proud of you..don't beat yourself up too much that you got upset with him. S**t happens. I'm sure he understands that and was proud by how much progress you made