Care

I do not care.

I have no need to care.

For if I were, it would mean losing

the very essence of my moral dignity.

To sacrifice, to savor.

Lie in the bed you’ve made.

These dreams play tricks upon

my soul and file away at the walls around.

 

I will not care.

It doesn’t matter.

My needs will go untouched

and uncared for just as I will it.

I will lie with lies, my head on the pillow

of injustice to all crimes committed.

I will reap the benefits of a false emotion.

And ignore the caring word,

for what would they know?

 

No, it never mattered.

Past or present, I will not allow it to change.

History repeats itself too often

and the scene is getting redundant.

Prevent repetition, stop before it starts.

Play the game, but never hope to win.

 

A stepping stone.

You all have found what it is

that makes you happy.

Benefits are what we were composed of,

a benefit to the life they all have now.

And I’ll play the voyeur to their ecstasy

Author's Note

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Reviews

[Letemdangle]

I think many women have resigned themselves to this situation unfortunately. Daily pressures, a few bad men and the heart can go cold. Can't see how to improve it, but lines "A stepping stone.
You all have found what it is
that makes you happy." put a bump in the road for me.

[Calypso]

Well said.

[tekphobik]

Mer herr, you done good with words I tell ya what. Love is naive, most of the time.