The Light

And at last I've seen the light

and it's like the fog has lifted

and it's like the sky is new

The world has somehow shifted

All at once everything looks different

Now that I see you

I never thought a newborn baby would save me.

Never in my wildest dreams did I expect this child to be my first love.

I always thought my first love would be for a man...

but this love was a different kind of love.

That baby is nearly 4 now.

This week is the week I have been dreading ever since I fell in love with him.

This is the week I have to let him go and grow up.

His very last day with me will be on Friday.

Next school year he will be starting preschool and then eventually he will be on to kindergarten.

I love this boy more than I can explain.

He has taught me so much.

He makes me proud.

My heart sings when he bursts out laughing his infectious laugh!

When his little eyes twinkle,

I was afraid our bond would die out but it's still here.

It'll always be there. At least in my heart.

This child was my light.

We met right at the time when I needed some healing.

Nothing else seemed to be working in the world...

but when I got to step into his world and take care of him, he changed my life and made it bright.

I watched him bound down my favorite place today.

I can't help but wish he could stay this way forever.

Full of wonder and innocence.

It would be selfish of me to never let him grow.

If he didn't grow he couldn't ever learn.

I just don't know how I'm going to let him go.

I don't want him to see how dark this world really is.

I don't want him to get burned or hurt by someone.

I don't want him to feel  the sting of heartbreak.

Most of all, I don't want to see what my world will be like without him in it everyday.

There will be no more hugs.

No story telling.

No laughter.

There will be silence.

Yet my worries of him forgetting me washed away when he took my hand the other day.

His big hazel eyes looked into mine..and his little voice came out:

 I will never forget you, Kathryn! You are my friend.

Go do great things my buddy.

I love you.

I love you to the moon and back!

You'll always be my light.

I'll never forget you you either.

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Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I do understand this story. We do learn true love with first child. Beautiful photos and very nice words for love and son.
"I love you.
I love you to the moon and back!
You'll always be my light.
I'll never forget you you either. "
Thank you for sharing the amazing story and your thoughts.
Coyote