Crowded emptiness

She doesnt realise i sleep so much
Because sometimes i dont want to wake up.
I love you more than life itself,
But in sleep there are no break ups.

Cant seem to hide the sadness
under this plastic smile of mine.
Looks likes shes recognised my disguise.

Im living in a crowded place where loneliness is taking over.
Im closing my eyes to speak
to the angel on my shoulder.

Sometimes the sunlight shines in my eyes and burns my skin,
Sometimes its rays just cannot
find their way in.
I cannot help the way i feel about my now,
Only memories control emotions in me.

Now and again im back on stage,
with no cause for dramas.
Then up it comes to have its way
faster or calmer.
Running in dreams is how it seems to take control.
I wish i knew the reason,
Of my saddened soul.

Im still yours to have for life
If youll still have me
Ill wear my smile again soon
As soon as ive found me.
I swear ill find me
I hope youll stand with me.

Im living in a crowded place where loneliness is taking over.
Im closing my eyes to speak
to the angel on my shoulder.

Author's Note

Let me know what you think guys!

Reviews

[RubyOmma]

I like it, I think it's really good. I can picture you in bed, I call it bed slug mode. I have been through something similar recently so it spoke to me. :) Thanks!

[Paul williams]

Thank so much for your comments, it means a lot. I wrote this when i was in a bad negative place - thankfully its a past state of mind. This poem helped me to let those close to me know where i was at and how i was feeling. Thank you.