Chapter One

A Chapter by LoveYourself

Flashback/Flashforward

November 29th, 2011

It's weird. I sit here in school but my mind is somewhere else, far away. I reside in the comfort of my own imaginings. I listen to my ipod, only certain songs make me think. Mostly of him. I have a new boyfriend now. I'm very, very happy being his, but for some reason my mind still allows my heart to dig up old memories. I don't think of anyone but my boyfriend... and him. Sadly.

I feel I'm doing a great diservice to my new love by being with him when I still love my ex. It's a vicious love triangle... one I can't control. I'm stuck on one side, with his lasso around my waist, trying to pull me away from this new love. Sad thing is though, he's completely unaware he's even ding it. I think I'm still too attached to this old love that it's hard for me to put my whole heart out there for my new one. Nothing by The Script sure explains my situation in words stolen right from my mouth. I heart the song I'm Yours Jason Mraz come on my iPod, all I can do is think of him. Remembering the times when I was his.

That was the happiest I'd been since before my mother got horribly sick with cancer, later dying a slow death. Since we... well, since he decided to go a seperate way, I've been forced to forget that happiness. He tries to call me his "lil' sister", cause we're more than friends, less than lovrs, and certainly not FWB.

I try to consider him like a brother, but it's hard when I'm head over heels in love WITH "mybrother." I don't know what to do aNYMORE> I told him I'd never move on and never give my heart to someone else, because it belonged to him rightfully and no one elSe. But he's moving on, and it was only breaking my heart more. So, here I am with my new love. Here I am, forced to move on. Still... things will never be the same again.

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© 2012 LoveYourself

Author's Note

This is somewhat of a diary entry I wrote back in November last year. Excuse the random capitalized words, my netbook is very slow and thought I had the Shift key pressed. I don't know what the heck is wrong with it. And when I try and erase it and retype it, it erases whatever is infront of it... so yeah. Enjoy. Reviews please?