Black out

what happens when i blacked out and why. some of it at least.

"Vision slowly turns into a black tunnel with a glowing red outline
only seeing what has caused this raging inferno of anger past and present
then all vision ceases
a door inside my head opens and thoughts, emotions and memories unlock
time seams to slow and i drown in the tidal wave
What will happen is unknown
i am the monster that was locked tightly inside for none to see and is released upon this world
i unleash the anger within that has slept for eight years upon my enemy
i pound my fists wherever i can against him
it feels wondrous to hit this face that reminds me of yours
yet at the same time i understand that it is not you
people around me yell in fright,anger, and worry for him,and me
it takes eight people to rip me of of this person who i warned to stay away
my vision snaps back....i still feel the raging anger inside and i yell,
but it is not my own words that i speak but the monster that's inside words
i yell not only at the person in front of myself who has angered me
but you who has caused me this anger that is not there.
This anger was not meant for these people of my new life
but for you, you b*****d!
you vile venomous volatile snake who used his words to sneak behind my mother and cause us pain and this anger."
   

Author's Note

I have forgave the person that has caused all of this, but i still have my anger problems. i have blacked out only 3 times that i remember. each time i am scared beyond what i have ever felt and at the same time it feels good....and that scares me more than everything. My mother and i were blinded by his vile words and i do not blame her for anything. i am just glad we escaped from his grip before it got worse. for about four years after my mom left him, i was depressed and my emotions were out of control. now its a lot better and i have healed greatly. i have been attempting to write poems, tell me what you think of it! thank you for reading it. **oh and sorry if there are any mistakes**