Longing

Look'n within ones eye....

Knowing what is on the lips to be said....

Wishing she knew my heart of hearts....

 

From the start she had mine....

Instantly, without hesitation.....

Blinded by my own suffering...

 

I couldn't, wouldn't tell the feelings....

Showed her in little ways.....

Yet I stayed away from my heart to be known....

 

She got in relationships that were less then bliss...

She new my eyes watched over her....

She new my hug, spoke volumes....

 

Yet I coward....

Yet I hold back.....

Yet my voice couldn't speak.....

 

I tell myself...

I only want her happy...

I only want her to be in love....

 

I deny my Happiness

My love, my desire...

Insecurities rot the soul....

 

Longing of such secrets to be known....

Afraid she will disappear

Then I am alone once again...

 

Pain and anger deceive

To have her truly see me....

Would truly set me free....

 

Just longing......