Suicide is for the Hopeful

To you, my aching heart, broken and bewildered.

And you, the sorrowed face, detached and unfamiliar.

For you, inspired aim, so cruel and unforgiving.

I leave you now, in shallow ground, so that you may fade away.

For the silent whisper, wont with rage suppressed.
Then you, withdrawn emotion, so cowardly and crass.
To you, misguided anger, opportune and unexpected
I leave you here, in the midst of nothing, so that you disappear.

For the one faltering step, unreliable and deemed the wicked.
To this unrelenting hindsight, indifferent and unbearable.
For these streaming tears, uninvited, scarring and forever..
I leave you bound, beneath the surface, so that you never appear.

So here you are, this troubled mind, brutal and abrasive.
Along with you, crippling depression, committed and unwavering.
This is all for you, troubled past, so permanent, so wearing.
I leave you all, as good as dead...

so hope creeps in to take me.

Author's Note

Reviews

[Gleb Zavlanov]

Wow...this has to be one of the most, powerful, bone-tingling and saddest suicide poems I read. This was masterfully crafted, and the words are flawlessly chosen and tied. It's extremely horrifying that many people come to the point of suicide, but with correct care and hope, depression and suicide rates can drop. Thank you for penning and sharing.

[Raymond Federle]

I have been luck in my life to have never had to deal with thoughts of suicide. I do struggle with depression perhaps more than average but I have a deep seated drive to overcome as well. This was instilled by my grand parents who raised me. Mom was a teacher for 40 odd years, the old man was in the Navy for 30 some odd years. Although they are both gone I cling to the ideals they taught me like a life preserver amd it keeps me floating.

[RealistMe]

It's very descriptive, which is always good. I question the spelling for your title. Do you purposely mean to spell "Hopefull" with 2 L's or 1 L?

[Raymond Federle]

Nope... your right. One "L". Thanks for catching the typo! :)

[RealistMe]

You're welcome. I'm always glad to help. :)

[Lyn Anderson]

I really hesitated to read this one. Suicide is a tough one - touched me too closely five times. But if I understand it correctly, it is all the pain and depression that is being excised, and that, is good.

[Raymond Federle]

Thanks Kl. Yeah, it's a rough subject for so many people. Seems like everyone has been touched by it far to often.

[Pryde Foltz]

For one faltering step, unreliable and deemed the wicked.
To this, unrelenting hindsight, indifferent and unbearable.
For these streaming tears, uninvited and scarring.
I leave you bound, beneath the water, so that you never surface.

Really excellent word choice. A sad but great write.

[Sami Khalil]

Sad reality indeed for the hopeless who can't find another way or portal other than death...Touching indeed...:).........

[Vidya Bacchus]

This is so sad and deeply profound.Sometimes we are just not strong enough to face this viper of a world.

[Frieda P]

Extremely difficult read for me, my sister committed suicide by hanging in 2009, you own my tears in this moment. Well written, sadly it happens all too often...