I am who I failed to be

I'm like duck in the water kicking like hell to stay floating.

I'm like a lion with no heart and no kills, so no use for gloating.

I'm painstakingly drenched in the tears of all my regrets.

I'm stained and spoiled by all of my misguided bets.

I'm vaguely lost in a storm of my own design.

I'm slowly swiftly waning like a song without lyrics or rhymes.

I'm my own best enemy and my own worst friend.

I'm breaking broken hearted promises and knees that shouldn't bend.

I'm sick of the sinning but even sicker of false good deeds.

I'm barely legally drinking away time, ignoring other's pleads.

I'm the writings on the walls smeared with blood, sweat, and tears.

I'm the half assed attempts at half hearted apologizes for all of my childhood fears.

I'm everything I wished I wouldn't become.

I'm all of the shattered parts and non of the completed sum.

So say goodbye to who I am and who I failed to be.

For those people have perished like eyes that choose not to see.