Calling Me Back

Spiritual poem, interpret it how you wish.

Calling Me Back

 

You always call to me, but I don’t always answer.

It seems like I don’t care, but I do, I truly do.

It’s just me, I feel wretched and horrible,

Like I don’t deserve your love, that I am not worthy of it.

Why would you love me? Why would you care?

I am but a speck on this Earth, what am I to you?

I know you say you love me, and I believe that you do,

But in my mind, I don’t think I could ever understand why.

I’m told that you made a great sacrifice for me, to save me,

To save us all, even though none of us deserve your mercy.

You keep calling me back, calling me ever so softly, ever so sweetly,

Yet I seem insistent on denying you, on neglecting your attempts.

Don’t think I haven’t noticed the good things in my life,

The things I know that you have given me.

I am truly sorry that in my mind, I cannot grasp your affection,

I cannot fathom why you would do these things for me.

Many people would blame you for the chaos around us,

I will admit that I myself have done the same.

I feel terrible for not simply accepting your gift,

I feel like a fool for not thanking you for all that you have done.

You keep calling me back, ever so beautifully, ever so tranquilly,

I feel as if I need to accept, I want to accept,

I want to run to you, but my mind keeps getting in my way.

My stubbornness and arrogance have been my downfall,

My ignorance and my independence have been my pride.

For I did not see that I truly do need you, I need your love,

For you are my Father, and I want to answer your call.

I want to feel your embrace, I want to feel your peace,

I want to feel like my life has meaning, like I have purpose.

I want to feel like you do love me, like I am here for a reason,

I want to be yours, and yours alone, may I love no other.

You keep calling me back, ever so lovingly, ever so tenderly,

I will run to you Father, please forgive my neglect.

For I know that you love me more than the stars themselves,

I know I would be a fool not to accept such a love.