The Note

 

(A subtle cough….)

 

 

Is this my end?

Is my wife to be a widow?

Is my soul about to send?

The thoughts in my mind…..

Rushing

Spinning

The cause of nausea

And the regrets of sinning

Is this possible?

How can one human mind comprehend so many thoughts at once?

 

 

I am not afraid.

My motive is well in mind

But her?

How could I do this to her?

These evil parasites

Devouring

Smoldering

Eating at me

Eating at our bonds…

“I’m sick,” they say again and again

“I’m sick,” I say eternally

 

Dear,

My coughing was overpowered by God’s voice. He told me to hold tight..I will hold tight as long as you’re hand is clasped in mine.

 

      If this is my end……….. I am not afraid. I am forever strong. I am forever the example. I am forever good motive. I am forever God’s child. I am forever a follower. I am forever a brother. I am forever a son. I am forever an uncle. I am forever in your heart.

 

                Love,

                     John

Author's Note

My brother was diagnosed with stage IV lung cancer two weeks after I got out of the hospital for spinal fusion surgery. One day, he thought he was going to do. He wrote his wife a note....I put the depth of his dispair in these words. Thankfully, he is alive and doing great. We just hope for the best! :)

Reviews

[Mysty Rayn]

How sad, but so sweet and romantic. A great story of a bond between husband and wife.