Please Understand

Yes, I know

I do say it everyday

I say it to my friends

I say it to my teachers

I say it to just about anyone I know.

You, may not have heard

I was the person

I was the one rumored to be beat

I was the one rumored to get hurt

I was the one rumored to walk with his head down when his father was present.

You see

I say it for a reason

I truly mean it

I truly stand by it

I truly and utterly believe in those words as they leave my mouth.

You take it the wrong way

I need this

I want it more than him

I want it more than her

I want to know someone shares it with me.

You may hear it enough

I don't 

I hardly hear it

I rarely am the one receiving it

I was never the one to smile when those words left your mouth before I reciprocated.

You are loved

I know who does

I do, I understand how it feels to crave it 

I do, I know what it's like to not have it

I do not want that for anyone, and that is why i truly love you, because i want you happy.

I gamble my own heart in hopes one day, you'll understand, I want you to tell me.