Dark Desires

Part of me wishes you were dead.

Is it wrong for part of me to want you to die?
To rest my body and tired eyes.
My blood hardens, feeling demented and weak.
The pain in my eyes won't let me sleep.

Death would do us all some good.
You no longer desire this plane.
I no longer desire your being.

Cruel and inhumane.

I love you with all that I am.
I just wish one day you would have given more of a damn.

A thousand wounds have come and gone.
Chains attach and hold me under.
I scream and say how much I love you.
In the end it doesn't matter.
A simple ploy for an inevitable mind screw.

I'm only loved when I can do for you.
I'm only wanted when I can provide
That's why I'm tired of hurting deep inside.

I forgive and try to move on.
Even let you in.
That's when you lash me once more.
Bloody and diminished, refusing to love again.

I'm aching deep inside.
I want the best for you.
I truly do.
I also want you dead.
Never again to infest my head.

I know I don't believe in god, nor heaven.
If it's what you desire, I'll play along.
Just leave me the hell alone.
I sometimes wish to never hear your tone.
The monster inside continues to grow.
While I'll truly miss you, part of me can't wait for you body to go below.

I'm sorry.
I truly am.
I just wish one day, you would have given more of a damn.

Reviews

[Butters]

Oh this is really great. I think alot of people can relate to the characters turmoil. It reminds me alot of having an abusive parent...you imagine life without them, but feel like you're a horrible person for doing so. Very relatable and Great Job!!