Dear Sister

Something I needed to do for a long long time

I've been quiet for so long
You've hurt me so much
I've grown to resent you
I still love you though

I hate how you've treated me
Screaming and yelling
Nothing but a big bully
Running and telling

I know I'm not perfect
I'm really closed off
I freak out over silly things
I'm sorry it pisses you off

At least I don't belittle you
I may be angry, but I still have respect
Even though you do nothing but use us
I can see more than disgust

I honestly don't like to hear you're coming
I think about what it was like before
If everything wasn't your way
There was often hell to pay

You used to hit me
Just for fun
Punch me in the face
Throw stuff, kick me
Tell me daily you hate me

I love that by the way
If I did what you wanted, you praised me
Any other time
You told me you hated me

I love how you'd scream at me for being 3 seconds late to the door
I love how you screamed at me for not doing the right thing when it came to doing your chores
I could never win
I ended up crying
You felt bad and said you were sorry
Though you were just lying

It didn't take long for you to return to this state
Its because of this
I actually thought your were one I hate

I came to our parents in tears while you were asleep
I told them how you treated me
I felt so weak
I told them I don't think I love you anymore
I had reached my peak

The thing is, I really do love you
I just don't understand
Why you must always come first
Why you must receive everything you never had

You got everything I did and more
You have a boyfriend who loves you
Do you see someone who wants me
Yet you b***h if I get a dollar
Because you want someone to even the score

You have such good in your heart
I truly do love you
I just hate how selfish you are
Its why I'm disgusted with you

Reviews

[Sleeping Maiden]

Ouch. Such agony i can feel here! It made me so sad and broke my heart. I'm sorry to hear that such pain has tortured you.. But I am sure someone will take that hurt away from you.
This is an amazing piece filled with so many emotions, it twists with so much ache!
Great write!