arguing with my inner demon

TRIGGER WARNING: SELF-HARM AND SUICIDE

it was a mistake

i know

i swear it was

but it was your fault

f**k, i’m starting to shake

you really messed up though

everyone has their flaws

is that excuse your default?

everyone f***s up

oh save it

you’re pathetic

you’re a piece of s**t

do you really expect me to be sympathetic?

get out of my head

oh honey, you know I’m here to stay

you’re always bringing me down

i’m just telling you what everyone is thinking

can’t we just leave those things unsaid?

they’re going to say them to your face some day

i’m getting that feeling like i’m going to drown

good. feel like you’re sinking

why do you do this

to show you who you really are

to show you that you’re nothing

to show you that you deserve every single scar

and to remind you your existance is insulting

you’re a f**k up and you’re ugly

your friends are as real as me

your attempts to do anything are funny

they all laugh at you, that i guarantee

you say that you have made a mistake

you say that everybody does

but what causes you to lie awake

is that you’re the girl nobody loves

your mistakes have caused anguish

with pain and suffering too

did you every think it’d be best to vanish?

to admit that defeat and death are long overdue?

so take your little razor

and stain it crimson red

do us all a favor

and let us find you there dead

Author's Note

Ignore the lack of capitalization. This is also kind of part 1 of 3 (part 2 is "a message to my inner demon" and part 3 is "please stay"). Indented lines are the demon if that was hard to figure out (if it was, please tell me). Any critiques and constructive criticism welcome!