Freak Of Nature

Freak Of Nature

 

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Obsessed

           Freak                              

                Ugly.

 

All words I was thinking

Of when you were upset with me.

Stupid

        I was so stupid

                            So obsessed.

 

I don’t want to

Be like this.

 

You think it’s easy

To let go of a part

Of yourself?

 

Well, it’s not.

I’ve been trying

For years without

Success.

 

 

Bitchy

       Crabby

             Cynical

                    Grumpy

                          Miserable.

 

 

All a part of my personality

It’s not fair that I have to try to hide

Them away from people, as if they’re not to be seen.

 

If you want

I can be nice

I can be helpful

 

But only if you let me be myself.

 

To be myself

I have to rear my ugly head

Once in awhile

 

Sure, I know I have anger issues

Sure, I get mad at the dumbest, littlest things.

 

But does it matter? You’re my friend.

It shouldn’t matter whether I’m depressed, emo,

Or just plain whiny.

 

You said you’d always be there

But whenever you get mad at me

I can’t help but wonder

 

Will you leave,

Just because I piss you off,

Just because you wish I didn’t have all

The negativity that I do?

 

I hope not

Because then that would mean that

You were never truly my friend to begin with.

 

And that alone would just kill me.

 

I don’t like feeling like a

Freak of Nature.

 

 

Reviews

[JelliFyshKissUs]

Oh, the array of thoughts with different font--brilliant! We are all a bit cynical and crazy from time to time, and it is those who believe we should only have highs and never have lows that can't handle us. You portray the erratic emotional and mental thoughts spot on. Nicely done.

[red_saphyre]

in my opinion we are all freaks of nature and the ons who think they are normal are the worst ones. the people who matter will be there no matter what and the ones that dont will be there when the want.

[deeps]

This is such a powerful strong write here.
I also found some truth in this. Enjoyable read.

[EverEmma]

Hello friend. This is a beautiful piece. Poignant and strong, filled with sadness and hatred that only you can understand. I also know how it feels when you think you are ugly. Everyday I sit at lunch almost crazed with confusion and jealousy as I watch all the pretty popular girls walk by. Always laughing, squealing, and flouncing around with their tiny figures, I look down at my big thighs, slight bulge on my stomach and wish for something else. I truly feel your pain on this one. Its more than just me saying that to make you feel better, it's the truth. Self confidence is a gift for some a curse for others. It makes girls cry and feel awful everyday and it helps some girls be the center of attention. Personally this is one of your vet pieces yet.



-EverEmma