As a child

I never had a lock

on my bedroom door.

Scratch that-

In my first home I remember, 

I locked my door and fell asleep

to wake and find my mother 

busting the door down in a panic.

She loves me so much. 

I wish I had more.

I want to die.

and by that I mean

I want to go;

I mean

I can't breath;

I mean 

the pains of life are, at times, too much to bare.

I just want...

Will I ever stop feeling like that child who used to,

still does,

sit on the bathroom floor for hours

because its the only room

with a lock. 

Reviews

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I like formating of this piece. Actually all your writing have formating what I like. When formating became part of design art of poem. It's make poem more desirable to read.


Like a child I had simulate experience . Just at my case was mother who locked me and I was the one who screamed.

Your writing have strong emotions with hint of poetic wit .


I am not professional so I cannot tell you what should be improved or what should be make differently.

My advice is just write and be open but also don't let be influenced by someone on Internet. Your writing is your way of expression .

By the way your writing style little bit reminds me writing of Kathy Acker. Maybe you can check her out. If you don't already know her.

All the best with your writing.

[May Fosnes]

I appreciate your comment, your advice, and your recommendation. I will heed them. Thank you!

Once my friend, whose parents were abusive in every form, and I were talking about our mothers, love, and touch. After a quiet moment, we simultaneously let out a sigh. While I said "my mother touched me too much," she said, "my mother never touched me." Then, we laughed- hard. It was a one our very in-touch moments. It brings me some satisfaction that this poem spoke with a piece of your past.

While I’m here: I’ll tell you I have your poem, “I am obsessive type” open in a tab on my computer as it’s really grasped my attention. I’ve read it a few times and have been deciding if I should brave sharing my thoughts. I’ve enjoyed it thoroughly.

Best.

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At my reviews I try to brought my point of view and if is possible some useful informations. But I am very careful to be too much clever or wise. I am glad you like my review.

We are creatures who share same or simulate experiences. It's always funny how people can be affected in different ways . I think our childhood can have quiet great influence on our nature and who we are .

Obsessive type poem is more form of art therapy then real poem. Lately I feel how my dark forces take over my mind. Living with emotional dysregulation can be sometime s hell. I went quiet rough there . I find using of obscene scenery and language can make my writing more real and more authentic. I wonder if you comment on that piece what's your impressions , thoughts. Etc.