The unspoken Words

Just ramblings

Today I truly gave up on his love our life
I can honestly say the weight makes me sad
so many tears through so many years
and today I must walk away

He is ruled by the world and for that I lost
every amount of respect I ever had
no one or thing has every let me down like he
he places obstacles which in truth are saving me

I can not even be friends with a person like that
he wasn't the man I thought and I want more
I want a life now removed from all of his fear
that fear that still keeps him tied to her

He has become a fixture of my past and there he stays
I guess I loved that moment in time more than him
I wanted so much to start a new life but not now
his baggage is more than I can handle

His kids he never sees rule who he is
yes almost 30 but they would hate me
I do not want to be near people like that so
I will just hang in here until I find happiness

Everyone says it is just around the corner so hey?
I guess I am saying I do not want that dream anymore
I can not pine away on memories or life afar
I want a tangible kind of love