The day I discovered I might not be there

a letter written to all of the people to whom i owe my greatest lifs adventures. of which, many do not keep contact or try to. but what a reaponse I got from this letter to a few hundred people.

I doubt many will read this. as I know I stopped making sense to a lot of you a long time ago... I just wanted to post and let you all know that in a way every one of your lives is so precious to me... as I got to live some of the happiest and exciting moments that most wouldn't get the chance to experience stretched over a whole life time... just know that I actually think about a lot of you all in my head.... I still hear your comments to things I see and hear as if you were with me every day...I have and still do hear your laughs and cries... and even though separate, truly, this has been one of the only things that has kept me going this long. All of the ones (and you should know who you are now) know that you couldn't understand how much you all mean to me...and I just wanted to say thankyou.. without you all.. I never would have made sense... <3 Remember that in life.... being right is never the answer. I hope this piece of wisdom brings you as much insight as it has me one of the greatest gifts given to me by my dad. Its one of the greatest gifts I could impart with you in this letter to all of those who I have shared my life with... as it was the greatest gift ever given to me. and finally remember that only when you conquer emotions do you truly begin to take control of your own lives. . . .don't let the opinions of others affect how you see the world . . . or where your going. . . unless it is something that you want, that you are beautiful you were made perfect just the way you are.... and the day you learn to appreciate the things that you dislike the most about yourselves and others will be the first days you truly start to see the beauty in life.... the imperfections are what make you .... and I wish for all of you to be made whole in the end as you were in the beginning . . . I wish that for each and everyone of you. with you always. whether you like it or not :P <3 Een blij gezicht opent alle hearten A happy face opens every heart. Peace x

Author's Note

found out I have a disease which has caused some issues and will shorten my life. wrote this in a moment of clarity. just wanting to leave behind to many who I used to know well at least something positive for them to remember.

Reviews

[emmajoygreen]

'Remember that in life.... being right is never the answer. I hope this piece of wisdom brings you as much insight as it has me one of the greatest gifts given to me by my dad. Its one of the greatest gifts I could impart with you in this letter to all of those who I have shared my life with... as it was the greatest gift ever given to me. and finally remember that only when you conquer emotions do you truly begin to take control of your own lives. . . .don't let the opinions of others affect how you see the world'

However and whatever your health,. you have wisdom that seemingly flows naturally. Maybe deeply considered. perhaps instinctive. Whichever. you have offered a part of you in a matter of two readings of your way of thinking, both poem and Author's bio. Am so very sorry you have such a have such a load to bear. Rather think I should have 'said' so more clearly, Simbles

[Simbles]

Thank you :)

[Neville]

Oh' but what a beautiful gift you shall bequeath each and every one of them .. Sadly so very much enjoyed my new found literary friend .. Neville

[Simbles]

Happy that my words can stir for you, your emotions. In the world we wake into present day.. I find people are becoming greater equipt for empathy and looking at how things can affect us analytically but being present inside a moment to able to be left to the throws of the emotions that flow upon us, feelings of such you insinuate, genuine sadness.. hiding from this gift I find to be an underrated way to exist. Instead of always being two steps ahead of everything so that when confronting emotions reveal themselves inside the chaos, where true emotion is born, one can already be two steps ahead, able to stand infront unaffected by what would have happened if one had not preempted for the assault, saturated their being, had they, in a more humbling exchange, where they open themselves to the mercy of what their mind might perceive with minds uninhibited by relenting focus of no tru orientation, find peace inside of what they are always usually illuding themselves from, common these days more often then not these gaurds people use, from what I can tell, are used to be kept forever in a state of momentum so feelings cant hinder nor hurt, commonly now these gaurded minds are more transient and uninterrupting inside their communications with others without these gaurds up I think it would be impossible having been in a position to feel to be able to have these feelings listfully float over the top of us and not have the these powerful waves of feeling consume us entirely for a moment at least or more. Which is scary because these are powers that stir unpredictable waves of feeling through the body and mind making oneself more unpredictable to ones self, and as to often I find that people present day mistake empathy for actually feeling So being always prepared for something that has never been allowed to interact in a mutual exchange. Could and hopefully do on the day those gaurds fail. Make you feel more then you ever thought possible.

[Neville]

.. Just maybe I'll give it a try .. Neville

[Simbles]

Spontaneousness keeps the worth of a wise mind alive

[Neville]

it seems you are a philosopher as well as a poet :)

[Ken e Bujold]

Simbles, this is a truly moving statement of life, an affirmation of all that matters. Reading your note makes it all the more remarkable. Let me assure you, though we don't know each other, I am certain that those that do will find comfort in these beautifully composed thoughts

ken