Something That There Never Was

Those days you'd walk

The times you'd talk.

A friend, just that, nothing more.

For how could you be, when you knew for sure.

Confused if that

He was never yours.

Accept that all he ever sees you as is you.

You are a friend

a companion, a pal.

A cheerful smile to talk to.

But little did you never know

His feelings were more.

He was subtle, smooth, a flirt.

But at the time, all you knew was hurt.

Your walls were up

He broke them down.

His cheerful smile never seemed to rid your frown.

Then one day you noticed the flirt.

You asked.

He rejected.

He crushed your thoughts that you could ever be anything.

For all you could ever be, is just a school fling. 

The more you thought

The more you felt. 

Emotions are  Gamble.

You decide to play it safe

Because after all, you were too late.

Another girl

Another heart shattered.

And at that point, nothing mattered.

You felt so dumb that anything could happen

You felt a fool you even tried.

You tried to stay your distance.

But even that didn't stop him.

He continued the cheeky smile

She pretended to be okay for the short while.

She's lost, confused, depressed if that

But she continued to wear her happy hat.

The conversations never grew.

But after all, who could ever like you?