Marlboro 27's

I’ve been on an unhealthy diet of water and cigarettes:

Marlboro 27’s.

I’ve lost hope for this awful planet,

So I keep my faith on making it to heaven.

My insanity and conception of life isn’t a curse.

I do admit that it is a gift that I had obtained

Since I was a young kid.

I’m keeping my soul,

But the heart inside of my body is growing oh so cold!

This feeling leaves me more than sick!

Why?

Because I have no control over this.

I have been controlled with my mind stuck inside of me.

Look around!

I see nothing but sorrows on this ground.

An angel’s voice is the only sound ringing in my head

Killing my innocence.

I can’t afford a decent meal for myself

Because my pockets only contain twenty-five cents.

I get no help taking care of myself

Or loving myself.

I’m searching for a love for myself,

But I need no help.

Forget my health

Because my sickness is stealth.

If you see my face,

You would never know of all the problems I face.

Deep inside I couldn’t hide the truth,

So this is the life I face.

I want to know more than your name.

I want to remember your face

No matter the pain it brings.

I would never abuse your kindness because…

My eyes see through blindness.

My mellow tone is far from shyness,

But I’m not too sure you want to understand all of this.

Plus, they’re days where I think of suicide every five minutes...

Novelties are my serenity

Because they help me escape all of my insecurities.

Making love with scriptures and to those I don’t know names of

Because they paint me the perfect picture of imperfection.

The devil:

She leaves no fingerprints...

Reviews

[Coyote Poetry]

I knew this place once. Cigarettes, booze and too much thinking.
"Making love with scriptures and to those I don’t know names of
Because they paint me the perfect picture of imperfection.
The devil:
She leaves no fingerprints..."
The above lines. Solid and good. I liked them. Thank you for sharing the excellent poetry.
Coyote

[sinNsincerity]

Glad you could relate. It was a dark place and time for me. Thank you for reading!

[Coyote Poetry]

It is and you are welcome.

[Emily]

I love the first line!!
Keep it up!

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you Emily!

[dan]

Maybe switching to Marlboro menthol would help? This piece is like stream of consciousness writing or what I like to call brain salad. I tried following your train of thought but after a bit it seems to have derailed. I assume that was on purpose to kind of make the reader scratch the head and think, "Am I missing something?" I'm afraid the answer is: the point. Your sentence construction makes for some memorable lines but they are arranged a little too haphazardly for me. Let me tell you that I have a painful condition in my legs so I may not be viewing this coherently enough. I'm sorry. take care...dan

[sinNsincerity]

Oh God no, I hate menthol's! And all my writings are a broken well of consciousness spewing out.
read moreOh God no, I hate menthol's! And all my writings are a broken well of consciousness spewing out.
I like brain salad also.

[Crystal Overmeyer-Birmi..]

This is exquisite and so gritty . The use of Cigarettes right off the bat is striking and really sets the tone of the piece. It leave you with a raw feeling that is not comfortable, but i like that because its intentional and aids in the works overall presence. You don't need me to say it , but this impeccable piece.

[sinNsincerity]

Intentional and oh so true. Tales of the alley cat...

[Stephen Scaggs]

This is definitely a poem I love. I love the usage of marlboros and dirty water to create a sense of noir and muddled life. Like the Spoken Word feel you've got here. This feels highly personal and deeply connected. Shelving this one in my library. Thanks for sharing! Like these dark poems.

Grammatically:
"Plus, they’re days where I think of suicide every five minutes..." "they're" should be "there are"

Rating: 10/10.

[sinNsincerity]

Thank you for reading and I'm glad you enjoyed this one.

[MsJewel]

A deep and dark very personal write. I hope you find peace in writing - it can be very therapeutic. The last two lines seriously gave me goosebumps. A brilliant piece my friend.

Julie

[sinNsincerity]

Writing is very therapeutic and saved my life when I was thinking about giving up on everything.
read moreWriting is very therapeutic and saved my life when I was thinking about giving up on everything.
God blessed me with plenty of gifts, skills, and talents throughout my lifetime. A lot of those have been cut and writing is one of the last thing I have left...

[Rana]

This is so much like a spider's web, spun ever so finely and as if out of necessity and the words, flow all feeling natural, raw, real and overall quite a wonder to perceive. The elements all tragically complement each other, the diet, the despair, faith, lack of control or love, the attempts to overcome the phase. Even never having been there, I could connect, sense it. Wish you never get back there. A poignant write.

[sinNsincerity]

I hope I never have to as well, but at least I'll know how to handle such situations and I'll know that I have the will power to over come it.
Thank you Rana, I always enjoy hearing your take on things!

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Dark thoughts, Sin in Sincerity. Been there too, it's a desolate place where there's no one but you and a voice, I guess it's the devil's one, who's whispering in your ear. All I can say is, don't listen to it, there are much more beautiful songs about life than about dying. :) Rudi

[sinNsincerity]

More like a thousand voices with their own personalities, which I followed for a long while.
I know and have always known the light and wrong from right, but I simply made a choice to lose myself.

[Rudi J.P. Lejaeghere]

Yes, life is about choices. My mother always says, choosing is losing. :) Rudi

[sinNsincerity]

and then we learn.

[sereenaoutloud]

This is deep and dark but almost like a vent , to bleed it all out in ink to free it all! It helps , therapeutic !!
Always love reading your write Bestestestestest .. Hehehe

[sinNsincerity]

Very therapeutic!
I feel special, thank you Bestestestestest Bestie! =D
Hope you had a blessed Fourth of July!

[sereenaoutloud]

Lol... I did... We had a nice bbq fun day!
Hope you had a great one too!!

[sinNsincerity]

I had a blast with my family and I'm so glad you did as well!

[sereenaoutloud]

Family time always fun!! Me and the kids layered certain juices to make red White and blue drinks which they thougt was awesome so there was all these random cups made lol

[sinNsincerity]

That does sound awesome. I'm glad to hear they had a great time!

[Ana B.]

This is trully brilliant, and oh so deliciously wicked :) Absolutely a favorite!

[sinNsincerity]

Why thank you Ana! Deliciously wicked, I love it!