Spinning in Circles

        I’ve been stressing about the changes in my life and trying to come to a true understanding of everything that is happening. I could have three days left as a college student without any knowledge of how to come to grips with that. It’s almost killing me to be here and it’s going to be even more detrimental to leave. Rich kids don’t understand the world through this kind of scope. They’ve never been in shoes as worn as mine and I’ve never been in shoes as grand as there’s. I truly believe that America is in a state of class warfare where the rich do not understand the poor and the poor simply detest the rich. I don’t believe that they were God-blessed more than I was; they were simply born into a life that I could only imagine. Throughout my day, I hear the philosophies of a thousand priviliged idiotic college kids who are going to college simply because their parents told them to. I am going to college because this is the only way for me. I don’t have much to return to when I go back home; only a mother who maintains an odd amount of optimism while a storm swirls angrily around her and a father who maintain an even amount of pessimism while he waits for his death to come. I wrote this note for the sake of my sanity because every thing is screaming at me to give up and go home and lose and I can’t. I was born with so many dreams that fade every day by way of reality. A reality that is debated in classrooms and questioned in philosophies. To be honest, my head is spinning in circles trying to find the meaning to my time here at school and on earth. I don’t know where I’m going or what I’m doing; all I know is that I’m dizzy and I’m suffering. It’s okay; I’ve learned that a smile is the most precious thing to have when the weight of the world is on your shoulders because pressure is appeased by composure.

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I wonder how much of this story is written from a personal perspective. It reads like a confession letter to yourself, it's like one side of you is talking to the other side of you. Great work!