Feeling a Little Selfish

You used to tell me I was the greatest person you knew..

You'd tell me I was the least selfish of them all, to you.

Well, there's something that I need to get off my mind..

I'm feeling a little selfish and am in need to unwind.

You're gone now, and there's no one else to convince me..

convince me that I'm not who I think I am capable of being.

I know your life wasn't very pleasant and I apologize..

but I'm feeling a little selfish with these tears in my eyes.

I don't know if you know, but I miss you so very dearly,

why can't you see just how deeply your death's hurt me?

It wasn't completely your fault, I know you had a hard life..

I'm feeling a little selfish, wishing to reap you from the afterlife.

I miss our long conversations, about nothing in particular,

we were like twins, you and I.. practically perpendicular.

I never thought I'd ask you to go through hell and back again,

but I'm feeling a little selfish, this grief is driving me insane.

(alternative ending line, just for Kaycee<3: "I'm sorry I''m feeling a little selfish, I'll end this with an 'amen'.")

Author's Note

Wrote this poem about my mother, and also for a friend of mine who just recently lost her Mother-In-Law.. I talked with her about how, even when we want them back so bad, that we can't be selfish and think only of ourselves.. as much as we may want to. I'll forever remember my mom, and the good times she brought me. Till we meet again, mom. Merry meet, again, one day.