Laid To Rest

Dealing with suicide of a loved one

Laid to rest forever alone
The lights left your eyes
And your spirit has flown
You Disappeared without a trace
Nothing left but the look on my face
An artificial smile made to hide the despair
As I look to the sky and wonder if your there
I envy your freedom from having to feel
Who really got the raw end of the deal
While I'm left here to fight everyday
You found an escape and just went away
You don't have to endure what tomorrow will bring
You don't have to feel one f*****g thing
Am I mad at you or mad at myself
Why couldn't you just ask me for help
Id never turn my back on you in A time of need
So why'd you feel the need to leave
It's not like you're the only one
whose ever felt like they were done
I've been there too I've had them thoughts
there was a time in my life when I had them alot
Like you don't belong you're an unwanted guest
And ending it all might be for the best..

I can try to empathize all day long
But it does me no good cause your already gone...
But Maybe now That I've got some of this off my chest
Some anger and pain can be laid to rest.....