Daggers in My Heart

For Ben.... I'm sorry....

Don't do this.

I'm already losing it.

I can't f*****g breathe.

Why are you leaving me?

I've been trying so hard for you.

I can already feel the loneliness crushing me,

And I really can't breathe.

I can't understand....

Why don't you want me anymore....

Why can't you just say it instead of ignoring me....

What did I do wrong?

Swollen eyes and stuffy nose,

Aching head and chapped lips,

I'd suffer through all of this and take you back in a heartbeat.

I trusted you,

The first person in a year,

The only person for almost a year.

You saved me and now you're just leaving?

Who will save me tonight?

Who will save me tomorrow?

Why couldn't I just fall to the floor,

Why couldn't I just die?

I want to die,

It would feel so much better than this.

I want to die,

To feel blood flowing from these wrists.

I want to die,

And hear only the crack of the gun.

I want to die,

And get that high as my life is undone.

Swallow the medicine,

Tie up a necklace,

Lay here and sleep,

Make sure it's enough.

We don't want to wake up.