Different Pain

Tingling needles

Not half as sharp

Flit up and down my legs.

My eyes puff

From all the tears.

My skin puffs

From all the scratches.

My leg appears just fine,

But this is more painful than

The sobbing,

The cutting.

This is less painful than

The nightmares,

The holding in my screams,

The missing you,

The throb in my beaten but beating 

heart.