Closing In

Is it just me or is it getting darker
Like the curtain is closing on my life
The lights aren't as bright as they once were
And my mind isn't as clear as yesterday

I wonder what is killing me
Cancer, stress, anxiety
Probably all three
I guess none of this should be a surprise

I had the heart of a young pup
Yet my soul has always felt ancient
But you twisted up my heart and drained it
And now it barely beats

Mental diseases hit the wall of breakdown when you left
And holding them back was all I could do
And sit here and still do
When all I wanted was to be a hero to you

But I couldn't even be a man
And I'm left with more than a foot in the grave
My peak years I gave to you, angel
And now twilight is settling in

Is the pain in my chest or in my heart
I no longer can differentiate
Even though I have prayed for death for so long
I think I'm a little bit afraid