Equations

I can't function when there's a problem I can't comprehend
My mind so focused refusing to believe I'll never understand
How come there are no answers that I can seem to accept
My train of thought seems to be lost forever in debt

No cures no lectures no writings seem to know
Opinions from those are care about, nothing young or old
Bibles, self help, poetic and musical geniuses
Leave me with more questions than help my grievances

I, as in who I am will never feel normalcy within my being
Not even with a hand from professionals I'd rather not be seeing
Father time is nothing to me as others like to believe
His healing hand hasn't fixed me up, just continued to deceive

Don't ever wonder what's on my mind it's always just the same
The hows and the whys are always driving me insane
Years gone by and I don't feel the least bit more wise
As many friends tried to help, ended up with whispers of goodbye

Foolish man thinks he just needs to know it all
Maybe one day I'll wake up and not feel the need to bawl
But for now I refuse to believe this is how the story ends
When I founded a new religion, on how this all begins