Undecided

Always all or nothing except with "You"
I want to believe but what can I do
Every time I get on my knees and pray
My life gets worse, I swear this is true

Oh how I want to believe in beautiful heaven
And our lives just a part of the journey
But the words passed down in "Your Name"
My logical mind refuses to believe truly

Why can't we talk, I swear I'm listening
I need a lifeline and it seems only the devil can hear
I think my heart is pure and my intentions good
But it's always a turn for the worse, if I'm being clear

Please send me an angel to see me through
I'm alone and descending in to madness
I'm sure I praised "You" in good times too
But hell is gaining ground now the fastest

These trials seem endless anymore
I'm just a man begging for peace
Are "You" witnessing and enjoying "Yourself"
How many more lessons before these demons cease

Forgive my sins I don't live to harm
Love is all I want to give and receive
I can't fix the doubts though I wish
But I hope it counts, that I want to believe