Salvation in my desk drawerA Story by Blayk McCartneyever wonder if your counselor has ever gone through the same thing? felt how you felt? I do Today, I went threw the session with my patient, asking the normal questions and giving advise and tips and trick and all the usual counseling stuff that seems like a waist of time but actually isn't if you know what you're doing. She complied openly and listened closely, but she was also a little distracted; I could see it in her dark eyes. She was frustrated from thinking something over so at the end, I asked "do you have any questions? Something to say?" She watched me a moment, chewing her words, then "Do you actually understand what I'm going threw? Have you experienced depression like this?" I gave a small smile and replied "I do, and I have." The question hit me harder then I made it look. I needed to show confidence in the statement -not only to make her believe me, but to possibly give her confidence in me and herself that she can get better and I can help her do that... But still, when she felt, I let the front desk know that I needed a bit extra time before I met with the next in line. I slumped in my chair and took some deep breaths. I still suffer depression; I take medication and I practice all the little exercise's I teach. I do this job because it makes me feel better knowing there are people like me everywhere and that I can help them, even if only a little. Still, my heart feels like its bleeding from sorrow so often and things like that question she asked get to me so hard sometimes... I can't help but think what I keep in the bottom drawer of my desk; the final salvation. I fight to put it out of my head. I want to be stronger then that, but...+
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Added on November 1, 2014 Last Updated on November 1, 2014 Tags: Dark, depression, suicide, counselor AuthorBlayk McCartneyBC, CanadaAboutI suffer from depression and anxiety, but I'm working on recovering. I'm in my early 20's and jobless I love reading, graphic novels, comics, and novels. I also love Nintendo games and Minecraft .. more..Writing
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