Where Should I Linger?

what should I do when I am so confused?

Is it okay to be this confused?

Is it okay to fear you will leave me lone and used?

I have prayed  for the pain to dull,

and the hurt to cease

to live only, 

by myself - at peace.

But people come along,

who make me want to change who I am,

to be someone new,

someone shiny.

Yet the fear lingers on,

that I will indeed get my prayer;

to be numb and alone.

How I wished for that,

crying into the night,

hoping these fears would lie flat,

I pray the pain away,

but it won't go,

it stays with lingering throbs

threatening to tear me apart.

I want to believe I can be someone new,

someone shiny,

but the fear of you leaving me,

alone and used, keeps me confused

Author's Note

Yes I sound pathetic, but hey, I don't care :)
and please bring any grammatical errors to my notice please :)

Reviews

[Catherine]

this poem isn't completely dark, but you sure arn't waiting for the silver lining. it's like a thunderdstorm...

[Emrick]

"where should i linger?"the title is nice and catches attention.
Nice Idea for the title.

[Alex Davis]

Beautiful write, sometimes being shiny is more dull. and the only grammar mistake i saw was a repeated please in your authors note lol xD

[afra]

great ...i like it ....well done

[joshua deathdealer]

I like it. Well portrayed.

[Goodman Prick]

Pretty cool expressive writing. Btw thanks for the award... I find it very fitting haha

[Neva Flores Smith - Cha..]

I strongly remember reviewing this and saying how much I liked it and that it is not pathetic at all. I wonder what WC did with my review?

[Falling Leaf.]

Not pathetic at all. It takes a lot of courage for someone to speak of their innermost feelings.
My only bump in the road here is second stanza, second to last line. The comma there seems a bit unnecessary, and adds a pause that tampers with the rhythm. Only my opinion; just something to think about. Other than that, marvelous!
~The Wilted Rose