My life?

Life...you could call it that.
Sometimes people are born, and they grow up in a happy, normal life.
Sometimes people are born, and they don't. I feel like I'm someone else. I can't explain exactly...

I live with my mother and father. Sometimes I think that's a bad thing...
I am almost 17.
My gender will not be announced for my own purposes...
I lost my lover last year. I will miss him for all eternity.

I go by Axel.
I try to fit in, but I always get hurt.
I don't understand everything. But, who understands all?

My uncle died last month. I cried for a while, but when my love died, I couldn't shed a tear.
I beat myself on the inside while my mother screams on the outside.
I stopped in self abuse last year, at least on the outside...
I was dying on the inside, maybe I still am...

I am a human with problems, but I understand more than I let out.

I have secrets that are no longer safe.

I am more than meets the eye.

 

I am a musician.

I perform what I feel.

I have never gotten what I deserved until I opened up my heart to those who care.

 

I am in love again.

Life can get better....

 

Eventually.

Author's Note

What do I need to say? I put most of it down.