My Heart

My heart is so strong, I can be too. x~

My Heart

My heart is no longer breaking.

I am finally beginning to breath fresh air.

I can see clearly, the tears have stopped falling.

My heart is pumping blood everywhere like a powerful waterfall.

It is so strong, I can feel it working.

It’s quite amazing when you think about it, your heart does so much for you.

Along with actually working correctly in a physical form I also mean my heart in a figuratively way.

My mind and everything that makes me whole, at my core.

It’s like there was a huge crack or hole in my core or heart and now it’s gone.

It’s filled.

And it’s nothing like the s****y job I did, the walls I tried so hard to build.

It’s so much more than that.

I am finding myself giving more of my heart up to her.

Giving myself over to her.

Letting her seep into my open wounds.

But I’m okay with it.

It feels good,

To let someone in.

And not just let them in, but they also help.

It’s honestly a miracle.

My heart has been through a lot, I have been through a lot and now this new thing inside me…

It’s almost magical.

I feel like I’m in a fairy tale.

This is my chance at a happily ever after,

And you might be thinking that I’m getting ahead of myself and well you're probably right but…

As of right now...I’m okay with that too.

I'm okay with it.

I am going to do whatever the hell I want.

I am going to fight for my happiness and I won’t let anyone belittle me and drag me down ever again.

I want to be strong like my heart.

I want to become healthy and live a long life until one day I’m gone.

I want to get a gym membership soon since I have no summer plans that's perfect.

Two months at least, or more working out hopefully every day.

My heart is working so hard and it’s not fair that I’m just sitting here refusing to eat.

I am going to try and force myself to eat food,

And good healthy foods.

I am going to make myself so that one day It will just become routine and I can finally say god d****t I'm happy and proud and I’m okay and I’m content.

Although, right now I’m all of those things.

I have nothing to complain about, nothing that matters anyway.

I am going to be okay, me and her side by side.

Author's Note

Thanks for reading...let me know what you thought. I am suddenly very inspired to just get up and do things. x~