if i love you

if i love you 

and i fear how you will  love me 

then i will never stretch one wing

or see the earth as anything but sufferable;

another spring will pass

without my seeing anything

but me,

but if i leave expectancies out all night

so that they spoil and congeal 

on the counter,

hope and faith will be relieved;

love being the strongest of the three

will be remaining,

and i would rather love you helplessly

than any way at all.

Reviews

[Vidya Bacchus]

Sometimes we wonder if we dare to love because we are afraid of rejection.This is such a thought provoking poem Xavier :)

[m.s.early]

Thank you. I hope that not all of my poems are as matter-of-fact as others leaving room for interpretation :)

[Vidya Bacchus]

Yes indeed.You are welcome :)

[DaughterNature]

This is sweet, and I love the imagery of congealing on the counter: what an interesting way to twist an everyday idea! There are a few moments where the grammar gets a little fuzzy, but otherwise, very nice!

[jacob erin-cilberto]

what a great way to express such a common feeling...being torn between movement and inertia when it comes to love.

[m.s.early]

" between movement and inertia when it comes to love." - that's poetry right there... thank you so much for your review

[Frieda P]

Bat shtye crazy good this is...love/fear it's almost like that love/hate fine line........all or nothing, are we bold enough is the question.

[m.s.early]

tis true... such a tragedy to see love never ventured, i'd rather it be unrequited...

better to have love and lost... and all that jazz

[Frieda P]

Sometimes when you've been bitten too many times, you thing twice, and all that jazz ;-)

[m.s.early]

bah! mistakes aren't always preventive... sometimes it's the cosmos's way of withdrawing impurities from us so we do it better next time. :)

[Frieda P]

Blahblahblah I can't hear you ;-P

[m.s.early]

are your fingers in your ears? are you kicking your feet? lol

[Frieda P]

Both hahaha I'm just that talented. ;-)

[Ruth]

This is a wonderful display of love...it is an art...do we never take the chance and love because we "fear"? Comes a time, we have to be ourself and go for it, poignant piece hon x

[m.s.early]

my sentiments exactly. it is an art. trust takes an investment of time and time is so valuable no one wants to gamble it, but there's no other way.

[s y e]

Wow, this leaves me completely and utterly stunned at how amazing this was. You've really outdone yourself here, my friend.

[m.s.early]

(: you're so gracious. thank you :)

[Robbie~xoxo~]

This leaves me breathless...
Your cursive is mesmerizing, Xavier... Truly!

What bleeding hearts are we?...ever the Romantic!~xoxo~:)

[m.s.early]

(: thank you so much. no heart bleeds kinder than the pen's :)

[Jack...]

Holy **** X, this was gorgeous. Different in descriptive terms, but wow, I would rather love you helplessly. Damn that was good.

[m.s.early]

Thank you so much Jack. You're the master of love poems so this review is a real treat

[Lyn Anderson]

I am not sure the meaning of the last two lines, but I like it.

[m.s.early]

I meant it to stress that the narrator wishes to love her in complete abandonment.

(: thank you KL :)

[Mollie Fitzner]

Oh, and how often THAT happens...

[Mollie Fitzner]

First, I never would have thought of this idea. The contrasts are wonderful (first paragraph to next) It is the way things should be--so often people are too inhibited to show emotions--speak the truth of their craving of another person. It is very romantic--not erotic--I prefer the romantic over the erotic. The only thing I would change is in line 6 --I would change "me" to "my" as it is the grammatically correct way--the word "seeing" needs a possessive adjective. (I had to teach English one year) This is the type of poem I would LOVE to receive as written for me.

[m.s.early]

(: thanks for reading... and the tip... i'll make the change :)