What If He Knew

What If he knew

That I cut my skin

To watch it bleed

What If he knew

that once I denounced God

What If he knew

that the monsters

In in my head

Were real

What if he knew

that in my black night soul

I loved him

I loved him deeply

I still love him

What If he knew

that tomorrow was my last day

Would he then like my company?

Would he then like my smile?

Would he love me then?

What if knew who I was?

What if anyone knew who I was?