This life if mine

just a freewrite on how i feel lately

you know
there was a point in life
Where i was a lost soul
Mother was a pillhead
Daddy 
i dont know
I was only four when they left me alone
Wasnt sure what to think
But i was forced to grow
Scared of what i feel
Terrified to let emotions show
Just a scared kid
With a lot of problems
Put in foster care
hoping they could solve em
I saw my dad in a store a little later
I didnt tell my foster momma
All the pain came back
The tears came running like an open faucet
Hid in my room so long
Tryin to hide it
Was so hurt because i convinced myself that side of my had died then
I started hurtin
Its so easy to feel worthless when you know your own parent didnt want you
Its the memory of what used to be that will haunt you
Then there was the day i ran away
Didnt know where i'd spawn to
But im making it on my own
Sharing whats on my mind 
In these poems 
Is what im drawn to.