I was so far from myself

I was so far away from myself.

Stuck in the abandoned chasm where I had been left.

I was so used to the cold that I had forgotten the warmth.

In a place that was only dark, the moon had become my best friend.

I welcomed her changing faces, as I knew she would always reappear.

 

Gloriously she stood, my beacon.

My eyes knew her every flaw.

And felt as if she knew mine.

But one day she never returned.

 

Luna had been replaced.

I felt a queasiness.

Leaving me with sweaty palms and flushed cheeks.

He had replaced her, bold and bright.

 

I looked into His powerful gaze

And was blinded.

Yet I welcomed the warmth that Luna never offered.

He radiated me.

 

Lifting me from the cold,

He showed me he would never disappear.

His fieriness only increased for me,

And I enjoyed it at first.

 

But it became unbearable.

I felt suffocated under His brilliance.

I could never get too close

Hurt, whenever I tried.

 

I missed the calm that Luna gave,

Always so serene.

She was peace.

He, her opposite.

 

It felt like a lifetime.

Stuck under His omniscient stare.

My behaviour learnt from His.

I was so far from my true self.

I had forgotten how to live.

 

Who was I without Him?