Monsters

whispers are worth a thousand words

in my head

I can't forget you

soft and gentle you held me down

without a sound

tried to drown the monsters out

my insides are filled with demons

scratching, clawing to get out

shh it's coming

but i can't run inside my head

chained to the wall 

I endure it

does my pain make me weak

i'm definitely not strong

barely here, now I linger

Desperation takes the wheel 

always driving, always searching

always asking why

trapped forever in a fortress

made of walls for your protection

I cannot let the demons out

how can I make you understand

that I am three not one

part love, part hate, part hunger

everyday I walk

this tight rope of control

waiting for my slip

some days i want to fall

let my fears engulf me

and pass the wheel to her

god she is strong

I can feel her power

exuding what I lack

the price, however, is far too steep

I'm just too weak to let her in

to release the monsters I hold within

one day my veil will fall

then you'll see

I am the monster

I am the monster

I am the monster

the monster is me