Where do I go from here?

Mom <3

What do you do when the music stops?

Drinking alcohol will only cause harm

Doing drugs will alter my mind

I like my mind the way it is. Strong.

What happens when your world falls apart?

Nothing left to soothe you.

All you feel is alone and the very thought of living is exhausting..

I am running out of methods to cope with the life I was given.

I don't want to be here

I don't want to live without her

I do not know how to live without her

I just simply don't want to live. Period.

The day she took her last breath was the day my already weakened heart shattered into a million pieces

So what do I do now that the music stopped?

I can't drink alcohol because now it is starting to taste like juice

My mind is no longer strong, it is slowly deteriorating.

My world fell apart and now I feel I have no purpose. 

I have no guidance, no clue. 

No methods left to soothe 

I'm trying to live without her but she has always been and will forever be the glue.