My Lord and me

a conversation with my Lord

Depart from me for I am defiled

Condemned, sinner, a prodigal child

With guilt tormenting my inmost conscience

I should be deprived of Your holy presence.

My most beloved child, please stay

Let not your fears drive me farther away

It's been a long time since you called me friend

Do you have a moment with me to spend?

Why, oh Lord? I don't understand

All this time You have withheld Your hand

Where's Your glory and Your celestial host

Especially just when I needed them most?

I was, I am, and I will always be

Your God, your love--all yours for eternity

I've always been with you every second of your life

In joy and in sorrow, especially in strife.

But why does it seem like I was always alone

Despite all the prayers I had uttered and known?

I lived my days dying, I was consoled in grief

My faith, once strong, turned to hateful disbelief.

I know, My child, what you have been through

And it's never in My nature to just abandon you

Your eyes failed to see, your mind failed to know

All the graces that I never missed to show.

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Lord, I am sorry for my careless neglect

My sins stem from my refusal to reflect

I was wrong, please forgive the faith I lack

If I repent, will You still accept me back?

Child, there is one thing that you need to learn

My perfect love is not at all yours to earn

But to accept from My heart's overflowing bounty

I desire not that you again depart from me.

In your flock I was once a stray sheep

But now, my Lord, I am Yours to keep

Comfort me with your song and may it always be heard

That wolves may flee knowing I'm with my Shepherd.

You can only hear me without the world's noise

For I speak in silence, I am your heart's voice

Stay with me, and grieve me not with your loss

But if you do, find your way back to the cross.

Author's Note

Photo credits: Google images

Original link of this poem:
http://www.writerscafe.org/writing/arzeljoy_blu/1290102/

Reviews

[MelissaAndres]

Blue, I absolutely LOVED this! I have felt like this on a few occasions but felt the shame of being mad at God and then not worthy of turning back to Him. It is good to know that others have felt like this at some point in their lives. Your wording is excellent and your emotion is heart-wrenching. Wonderful job!

[Blue]

Oh wow. Thank you so much for your kind words! :)

[MelissaAndres]

You are very welcome.

[Kianna]

Dear Arzel Joy Grate Gervacio,

Hello, how are you doing today? As I was moving to your page to welcome you as my new friend, I glanced over your works and saw a very interesting title. I thought I may take a look and see what you have here.

I was truly touched reading this poem. The stanzas in which the narrator speaks I can testify with and definitely say I have been there. I saw a reflection of myself in this poem. The first stanza especially reminds me of how I am now because now I know who Christ is, it's like some of the things I do I know disgusts God and myself. It's so hard to forgive oneself, but then the words that were portrayed as God truly reminds me of His loving forgiveness and grace. The grace that forgives no matter what, that raises my head when I want to hold it down in shame.

I say to you well done and thank you. I will have to put this in my library so I can remind myself every time I mess up of God's everlasting mercy and grace so that I can stumble not, keeping my eyes above.

100/100

Sincerely JazzSoulKeke,

God bless

[Blue]

I'm honored for the opportunity to have touched your heart. Thank you and may God bless you.

[poetdoug]

This is a wonderfully personalized prayer, Blue.
So many people are afraid to pray thinking they don't know what to say--but you have spoken right from the heart. the very best way to pray.
Thanks for sharing this creative piece with us. It reminds us all that we need to make a fresh start in this wonderful New Year of 2014.

[Blue]

Thanks, Doug.

[Sunflower/Sara Kendrick]

Great spiritual work that speaks of your faith..God is always there it is us who move away..I am glad that I chose this one to read today..It is one of the best that I have read in awhile..Sara

[Blue]

Thanks, Sara.