Unbound

maybe it's because I was seeking comfort 

in some strangely perverted and convoluted way

longing for a sense of safety I believed was there

yet, have never known

if only...

why does this repeat

continual replays

once moved

twice burned

thirdly, turned away

it never changes

seeds know its bloom

I ask myself the reason

reasons lays bare

they bleed onto this page

and yet, I can't read

doors, there were too many to remember

unopened

and all I had to do was push a little to see

promises waiting

anticipating 

maybe I was a bit too optimistic,

die hard romantic.

relying on another day

another year

I am here holding the keys

the keys to tomorrow

tomorrow never arrives

it's balmy out there,

though I'm freezing inside

petrified

there was a time and place

and maybe there were many

and I?

I ran

ran like the wind

back to this familiar place

lifetime addiction

of bearing the burden

for ungrateful souls

it's wearing me down 

and I'm tired,

tired of trying

of going around and around

life unbound...

Reviews

[Alisa Js]

Aloha serah,

Thank you for taking the time to stop by and for your comments.

I can relate to your comment totally.

There is this one who has everything I imagined in another, yet at that time and place~ what did I do? I ran... foolishly. And now, the page has turned in this book of life. All I have are memories.

I am happy for you and celebrate your love across the ether.

May happiness define your moments together.

alisa ;-)

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:: turn around and run back... i ran too... for three years... then i ran back for two... we're still not together yet... as in spiritually yes but otherwise now... it's complicated... but thank you for your good wishes... may they come true... :P

[Alisa Js]

Thank you, Jacob for your most insightful comments. I, too wonder why some of us seem to repeat patterns and behaviors that we know from previous experience lead to nothing but agony and sadness magnified one million times over.

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:: i found him after many years of searching... and when i found him, i realized that i had seen bits and pieces of him in those i met before him... we have serious problems but we're not the problem...

:: before i found him, i was in the helm of the chaos you so finely describe in your potent, poignant poem... the "ungrateful" are less evolved than the grateful... they are ape-like while we are homo sapiens... they cannot help being that way and we cannot help being who we are... it took me a long time to accept this perplexing reality...

[jacob erin-cilberto]

so well penned and so easy for me to relate to...i did this too many times...kept falling for the same kind of person, the kind that was bad for me...seems i felt i was not good enough for a person who would actually love me back...so i got into the same situations over and over...i was bound to a life bound.

but finally i broke that habit...makes such a difference now....