Is this?

its there, lingering behind an unfinished thought

a careless word

uttered just below the listening threshold

slid like a knife next to my shoulder blade

right in back,

next to the dull glass still there from last week

when does it stop?

what happens now when there are no right answers

only these lonely suppositions

left from some fleeting vision years ago

maybe months ago

when this topic was poked about

and left flat

is it ok to hope again

when all roads lead to closed doors

empty lies turn away

when laughter dies

where is that part of ever after?

burn the page

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[ANTO]

"Is This?" - what - "Is This (all there is)?" - "Is This (it)?" - I felt that you cut the title short but not out of artistic choice more because you couldnt finish it. (Hell Im probably so far off track I probably am in deep water by now)

I get the feeling of a trapped butterfly in a jar - being able to see out - to see what other butterflies are doing, see them enjoying their short lives and not able to to 'go there' and of the jar being self manufactured, created out of expectations and dreams.

"burn the page" is such an evocative line - anger/disappointment/hopelessness/rage/
I was minded of the quote by Heinrich Heine
"Where they have burned books, they will end in burning human beings." -

the end of the line.

[Alisa Js]

Hello ANTO,

You are quite intuitive...thank you for your comments. I do appreciate them and you.

Regarding the title, one can fill in the blank...

Alisa💫

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~~ heartbreaking... absolutely beautiful poetry, dear alisa... ~~ i'm in this space (sort of) and so i relate to all that you express here a lot... ~~ yet somehow i think that there's life beyond betrayal... ~~ i think that till we are alive... whether consciously or subconsciously... we hope... because we know rationally that not everyone betrays... and we also know that sometimes a betrayer realizes what he's done... (and this is actually my hope for me)... ~~ i reached a terrible dead-end a few days ago... (yet again :P)... but i'm here now... and i'm glad you expressed something that my heart can sing... ~~ thank you for that...

[Alisa Js]

Hello serah,

Thank you for your time and comments. So sorry to hear of your pain.

I too, find myself wondering how can it be that someone who tells you they love you in one breath, mumble something else entirely opposite in another quieter breath to take an emotional jab at the very same person?

What kind of twisted manipulation is this?

Do we simply let it slide, roll off our backs, not acknowledge it?

or....

Do we speak up? And then what? More misunderstanding on their part as 'they' are never, ever wrong...

I have no clue.

Thankfully, we can write and share those particular heartsongs from our souls, whether full of joy and love or sadness and pain.

Alisa ;-)

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~~ "twisted manipulation" is a perfect expression for describing what they do... ~~ what happened with me was that my partner broke his silence (after 22 months) to falsely claim that he had not read a word of what i had said about his former cult leader... ~~ he was lashing out... because he left the cult and is possibly doing something worse than writing for a cult to earn his living... ~~ on the face of it, it looks like a real job... but it's just fluff... (as i discovered through meticulous research last night)... ~~ i intend to write about it... truthfully... in verse on my poetry blog and in prose in my cult crushing blog... ~~ if i don't, i'll get repressed... and writhe in pain... just as he is writhing in pain right now... ~~ he is not comfortable with who he is and what he's doing... there's no honesty in his existence or his profession... that's why he reads my honesty and when i flex my muscles and say so, he lashes out... ~~ what lies beneath all these charades... in my story at least... is that he is an adult survivor of severe child abuse who has piled up a lot of abuse from other sources as well... he's finding it really hard to project that he is happy... because projection is exacting especially if what a person is projecting is the exact opposite of what he's actually going through... ~~ there's a Pink Floyd song from their album called The Wall... which has the lyrics... "was caught red-handed showing feelings... showing feelings of an almost human nature"... ~~ that's what these people do... beneath their suave exterior is a human being... aching for help... IMHO... :P

[Alisa Js]

I can relate to what you mean. I think there are millions out there who have been so adversely affected....

... some who have no clue, others who are only now waking up.

What a horror-show!

Alisa

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~~ yeah... horrified is how i feel...

~ serah