The 10 Things I Hate About You

You know you love someone when you can't even hate them for breaking your heart.

I hate it when you look at me with those beautiful blue eyes,

That sparkle even in the darkness and completely hypnotize.

I hate it when you smile, that loveable child-like grin,

And then you try to kiss me by grabbing hold of my chin.

I hate it when you laugh and make the bad days less gray,

And when you tell me that you’re here for me and that it’ll all be okay.

I hate your curly hair that bounces as you move,

And even more when your song comes on and you try to groove.

I hate that I called you kid even from the start,

But you always told me you loved it and that never failed to melt my heart.

I hate it when we’re mad and you call me after a fight,

And when that conversation makes everything feel alright.

I hate it that we’re different, yet similar all the same,

Because that’s what makes us perfectly imperfect, which is not at all a shame.

I hate the way you make me feel when I don’t feel pretty at all,

Because whatever you say always manages to pick me up after I fall.

I hate it when you write me letters, your handwriting all askew,

Though checking the mail is the best, even though I get so few.

I hate it when you’re right even when I say you’re wrong,

Even if the disagreement is about the lyrics to a stupid song.

I hate it when you read to me on the telephone at night,

And take away my sleep even though your voice helps me to sleep tight.

I hate it when our nightly facetimes go on into the morning,

And how you let me call you before my 7:45 even without warning.

I hate it when you tell me old hockey stories, like the ones from your old school,

Even though I find them fantastic and not the least bit uncool.

I hate how we both love sports and our teams are in a feud,

But let me tell you one thing, it’s worth it because of you, dude.

I hate that you’re insecure, that you don’t always know your worth,

Because you’re here to be the best version of you on this happy place called Earth.

I hate that you don’t think that you’re good enough even though I’ve told you so,

But trust me when I say, I’m beyond proud of you and all the places that you’ll go.

I hate the way you support me and never will back down,

Even when I say silly things and sound like an absolute clown.

I hate when you said you loved me for the first time on the phone,

And I can’t explain my heartbeat and my joy as my mind was completely blown.

I hate it when you cuddle me and we watch scary movies,

Even though I never cared because you fulfilled your amazing boyfriend duties.

I hate when you’re not with me, I hate when we’re apart,

I hate when you chose to walk away and completely broke my heart.

I hate that you promised forever, yet that day may never come,

Because you decided it was over, and that stung like the sunburn on a beach bum.

I hate that I can’t hate you, no matter what was said,

Because the truth of the matter is, you’re still all that I think about as I lay in bed.

But the thing I hate most, out of everything that I’ve written,

Is how you still make me love you and that I’m completely smitten.