Hostile Act

You can pretend you're angry, but you're not fooling anyone. I know how scared you are.

Why are you lying to yourself?
you can raise your voice
scream until your throat is raw
dip your every word in venom
but you can't stop your voice from shaking
you can't stop those tears from building
go ahead and be angry, be hostile
but I see through your act
I know how scared you really are
you push everyone away
yelling the words "leave me alone"
until you loose your voice
because they were gonna leave anyway
you're scared everyone will leave you
so you leave them first
you're scared everyone will hurt you
so you hurt them first
you're scared loving someone will kill you
so you try to kill yourself first
you've been conditioned to think that
everyone will give up on you
that's why you always give up on yourself
you'd rather destroy yourself
and everyone around you on your own terms
but its not because you're angry
Why can't you admit how scared and broken you are? 

Author's Note

I'm pretty bad at titles. Oh well lol. I haven't been very active on here, but I just wrote this. Venting about my problems. So I thought I'd go ahead and just upload it. Feel free to leave criticism or reviews, thanks! xx

Reviews

[Shabeeh Haider]

Some people feel lonely, unloved and insecure. They scream and shout and show an attitude but it takes a soft and gentle heart to realize how unwanted and insecure they are feeling.
Very nicely penned.

[Amber Dawn Agin]

Thank you so much for the review xxx