The Pain

I'm the girl who tells you...

Exactly how I feel,

exactly what you're doing

right and wrong.

Exactly how perfect

the shape of your lips are.

How crazy you make me.

How I dream about you,

even when I'm mad

annoyed

frustrated

confused.

I'm the girl who will fall for you

harder than anyone else.

I'll kiss you like I mean it,

because if I didn't mean it

I wouldn't be kissing you.

I'll love you even when I don't like you,

even when I hate you,

even when you make me feel

like a twitching spider on your shoe.

I'm the girl who you'll fall for,

but you won't admit it.

Well.

Maybe you will.

But it will probably be too late.

I'll have dug myself a hole in you,

swallowed your poison,

swallowed the pain,

looked the other way,

and looked back again to realize...

you were never going to love me.

I guess I'm just addicted.

To the pain of loving you.