But I still love you

When you believe that the reason for the breakup is you, how do you carry on without your love�. This, unfortunately is true.

Very rarely does one come across

Someone as exceptional as you

I consider myself lucky that I did

I am grateful for the love you showered on me

For showing faith in me, like no one else

Slowly but steadily I moved closer to you

Shared my heart, enriched my soul

Trusted you with myself

I painted a very pretty picture

Of my future with you

Of our life together.

 

With your arms around me,

I got over the fears and the insecurities

That had been a part of me for so long

I was happy, I was eager

I was ready to start anew with you

I believed that I could overcome any obstacle

To make my dream come true

All along I was unaware that the biggest hurdle was me

I stumbled, I fell. And got up to a different self

I have lost you to my recklessness

I have stained your life

Sadly, I realized it too late

I have accepted my mistake

But I don’t ask to be forgiven

It’s too big a crime for that

So I have moved away

I hope you can move on

You haven't lost anything

For you are without something,

That wasn't worth having.

But I have lost happiness

The happiness that was made of you.

So, even though I cannot have you here by my side,

I still hold you close to my heart

The first thought on my mind is always Y-O-U

And I carry your memories everywhere I go

You are not with me today

But I will never be without you

 

 

Reviews

[Yvonne Heidt]

OMG - I totally have chills. (sorry - the valley girl slipped out!) This is beautifully written with honesty and (I believe) integrity. I FELT this.

I can relate to it all. The pain and loneliness are here without whining. Excellent job.

I LOVED this line:
"I stumbled, I fell. And got up to a different self"

[Candle in the wind]

This honest acceptance is brave.Why not start afresh? If you have got up to be a different you then why move away?The only question is to create that faith and confidence.Don't pick up broken threads start anew.

[Ladysue]

Caffeine, I felt this too and I also can relate in certain ways. You have conveyed your hearts feel beautifully and eloquently. I agree with Yvonne that this line is exceptional,
"I stumbled, I fell. And got up to a different self"
Outstanding expression of tremendous emotion!!!
I missed you while I was away!!!

[Marie]

Great job.

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This was a great poem. I loved that it is different in that you have come to terms with your mistakes and you want the other person to be happy, even if it is not with you. It takes true courage to feel that way. I truly loved this piece and thank you for sharing it with me. I hope that you are able to find love again.
Bethany

[Beth]

very poignant. I'm sure readers everywhere can relate to this feeling of lost, yet not lost, love.

[Serendipity]

no, No, NO. Don't let him go. If the love that you both feel for each other is as strong as you say then you must go and ask for forgiveness. He will forgive you because he loves you. Don't allow love to walk away. If you miss him, and he loves you, don't let him go. You will never forgive yourself if you allow him to get away. Love is life, and if he is your love, he is your life. He is waiting for you, because you are his love, his life.

[Dorothy]

That is so sad and so beautiful. I absolutely love the writing. It portrayed the emotion throughout the poem. It really does hurt to feel that way and you have captureed this feeling wonderfully. I love it.

[John Stussy]

Wow. I love someone as deeply as that, she says she loves me so as well... I hope we don't encounter any similar problems. The pain you must o through without him... Ouch. I don't know how you are so strong, it would hurt more than anything to be without my significant other.

[desertraven]

I with Yvonne on this one...love that line! So revealing of our true selves when in this position!
You nailed it, Girl!
Sandra♥

[Spoken]

Wow, this really spoke to me. It really fits an experience I once had in love.

I stumbled, I fell. And got up to a different self...

I really like this line. Every time we are knocked down we get up as a new person. The difficult times in our life shape us. Great piece!