In the Dark

Dad.

There are no words that could even explain how I feel right now. I was your little girl and you were my best friend, the one man I looked up to, you made me believe that there is nothing out there that could hurt me. But as I grew up, I saw the real you. The real you who hurt me more than anyone else ever could. I saw the man that you had tried to cover up in the midst of giving me everything I ever wanted.

Now we go day by day barely muttering a word to each other. I hope you're happy because within all the smokey nights and hungover mornings, you lost the people who were always there for you. You pushed away your entire family and still to this day you have yet to see the pain you've put us threw. 

You pushed away every single person who ever believed in you, because you thought that getting drunk and high on lonely nights were more important than taking care of your struggling wife, and four kids. Not only did you destroy your family, but your own damn kids.

You tore us apart by our music taste, our clothes, who we hung out with, what we did. You proved to us just how low someone could get. 

I really hope one day you realize what you did and come crawling back, just to feel as much pain as you put us through, to know how it feels to need the help from loved ones only to be pushed away. And I hope that you can see, just how much better off we are without you.

I really hope you're proud of what you did to your family.

Now go screw yourself.

Author's Note

Its not finished yet, still trying to find where I could add more emotion and darkness to it
Comments and criticism is greatly appreciated! :)

Reviews

[Mikayla_Stagg]

I like the raw emotion into it. Try focusing more on the hurt then the hate though, otherwise its more of a rant than something meaningful but still love what you did here. If it helps at all, my dad left when i was born with the woman he had been cheating on my mom with then came back when i was 9 just to be an alcoholic and hate me... i know what its like to have resentment and be hurt.

[Alyson Nicholee]

Thanks a lot doll! Ill try changing it up a bit like you said! and im so sorry, no one deserves to be treated like this :/

[Mikayla_Stagg]

No problem. And its alright, it gets easier with time... to talk about it and to even think about it or face it. It always hurts but it gets easier to deal with.

[A. Amos]

This is strong and powerfullly written and like your messages....

[Katelyn]

Loved it. Your ability to pack emotion into your writing is great. This beginning really got me intrigued into what will happen next.

[ojnxomxikx]

I love this because just like me, you use writing to express and let your emotions go. Good emotional aspect!

[Alyson Nicholee]

Thanks! :)

[The Quill]

ohh this is really very sad, father is indeed an inspirational figure and his weaknesses and cruelties hurt the family very badly .
you penned it beautifully, great work

[Andrew]

It was very dark and deep I love how you put just the right amount of detail.

[Alyson Nicholee]

Thank you! :)

[kylie giamba]

aw crusty I know we say we always hate each other but I'm proud of you for writing this, it really shows your emotion. ily kinda not really (AND FOR ANYONE READING THIS SHE'S ACTUALLY MY BEST FRIEND AND IM ALLOWED TO CALL HER CRUSTY)

[Alyson Nicholee]

aw aw aw aw